Some already settle down.. getting married.. having children, having their own house, car, good career. I'm very glad they all could achieve that. But sometimes i feel very jealous if to compare their lives with mine.
I don't know. I feel like I just live everyday, surviving day to day hopelessly. I hope there is also HOPE and CHANCE for me to have a life like people around me. Living happily... Posting happiness, share it with everyone else.
Unfortunately, i could not do it. Because, i got nothing to proud of, to show to everyone. At my age, i suppose to have a so called partner for life. But, look at me now.. I have no plus one yet. But, i somewhat not that dissapointed to have one. However, when i see somebody else is making progress. I get the feel which makes me feel kind of sad. "What a sad life."
I'm reaching 29 very soon. To be exact 6 days to go before i turn 29.
I really hope for the best of me in 2021. I want to make my parents happy. I do not want to overthink something. I just want to live my life grateful for what i have. What i achieve that not everyone could achieve.
I always pray to God that i don't have it easy. Sometimes, I pray "Ya Allah, just test me.. Test me anything. so that i could never forget YOU and always remember that i am yours. I shall return to you soon. Please always guide me to the right path of YOURS."
Everyday i hope to become more stronger than yesterday. I TRUST ALLAH'S PLAN for me. I know i will have something better.
What i need to do now is pray, and wait for it.
Sometimes, i really need motivation.
Actually, i do need it now. That's why i am writing this.
Please be nice to me 2021... Looking forward to create wonderful memories..
:)
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